Memories Haunt...

"I can't live without you... You are my life...” he softly whispered in her ear... For a moment she forgot everything... she was numb... not a single ray of excitement was there on her face after listening to those sweet lines... her thoughts were drifted in past.. When someone said those same words... In that moment she felt at top of the world... But today they created havoc in her mind...

"You can...” she said slowly yet forcefully... She didn't want to say that but she did... (at times she feel like laughing on these mushy talks.. may be coz today she knows how much truth is there behind those words).. Next moment she asked him to call later and switched off the phone...

She was gazing at her own reflection in mirror and all she could see was pain... she sat there at the edge of bed and covered her face with hands... tears started kissing her palms.. She didn't know how to control herself... just kept crying... how come one over come past memories... when you hear same words again... it hurts... It hurts so badly and everything becomes alive then... "You are my life... Can’t live without you... samjha!!" he said... "I won't leave you alone ever...” she replied...

Zindgi leke aayi hai.. beete dino ki kitaab.. gheere hai ab hame yaadein behisaab.. chaha tha kya.. paya hai kya.. humne dekhiye..

But neither she is his life anymore.. Nor she is there for him now... only thing left with them are these memories... it's so tough to believe those words again... Which have lost their value... how do one trust and why?? ..It’s just so hard to invest in those emotions again... to play hide and seek in those love lanes... and she was certainly not ready for this... She wiped her tears and walked out of the room...

It was a full moon night... everything was so calm and beautiful outside... but she was sad and lost in thinking... do we really mean things we say... or we just say them in rage of emotions.. "You are my life can't live without you...” how easy to say but next moment we do the same... not only for moment but for days... Months... Years... and may be life time... we do same... live without that someone... Whom we called our life at that time...

Kehte hai pyaar ka rishta hai janam ka rishta.. hai janam ka jo ye rishta to ye badalta kyo hai..??

..And as time passes by we don't spend a single second in thinking about them.. We don't even bother to know how that person is doing... and if by any chance life crosses it's path with them again... then we talk to them as we doing any favor on them..

Kuch es tarah baat karta hai koi.. jaise ahsaan utarata hai koi..

As we talk to a stranger... without caring about the other person we keep hurting them with our words... why..?? Just coz we want to show them we have moved on... nothing affects us anymore... aah! How selfish we become with time... No? We all are same…. you... me..Everyone... a bit more or less...

She sat down on floor and looked up at the moon. He was busy in romance with clouds.. She smiled and thought... Romance... Love... Care...All these are part of another world... a dreamland... in real... Life is just about something else... Something which she has failed to understand... she don't believe in all those love talks anymore... she don't want to dream anything anymore... She just want to take life as it comes... and want to live in a day... in a moment... why should  she believe those words.. What if tomorrow will be as same as yesterday... then again those tears... that pain.. Heartbreak.. No... She doesn’t want that anymore... She doesn't want to be his life... she want to live her life on her own terms... And she wanted to tell him that...

You have your own life... live it to the fullest.. Just try to live it with me as long as I am alive... but don't make me your life.. Coz life is full of surprises at times...

..And she pressed send... after few minutes her cell beeps and.. You are a sweetheart... That also a crazy one... love... she smiled and pulled her blanket up.. But sleep was miles away from her.. She was still in whirlpool of emotions... a long night once again..

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Song of the moment: 

Tere liye hum hai jiye.. har ansoo piye.. dil mei magar jalte rahe ..chahat ke diye.. tere liye...