Just Tired....

It’s not that I didn’t get the sleep and I am tired, it’s the other way round. My heart is actually tired of beating, my lungs refuse to breathe, and the whole essence of my existence is tiring. I want sleep, a kind where I have to never wake up again.

I am tired of acting like everything is okay and I am tired of people thinking that I have a wonderful life. I wanna get rid of this shell, of a fake smile, and I am tired that nobody noticed.

And the truth is that I feel worthless……..

I am tired holding on to things that are no more in my control and I am tired of trying to control what cannot be controlled.

I am not upset or hurt or for that instance angry anymore…I am just tired….

Often, it’s the deepest pain that empowers you to grow into your highest self, and I am tired of hiding the mess that I am in.

I am on the verge of nervous breakdown……

Love doesn’t hurt, loving the wrong person hurts, and I am tired being the better person. One day I will be the bitch they claim I am!

At times I feel I am waiting for something that isn’t going to happen, but I will wait, till the end b'coz I cannot love anymore, I gave you all the love I had left in me, I have nothing more for anyone.

I am Just TIRED

PS: 

Staring at the sunset makes me wonder
They all taught me Love
But no one taught me, how to leave them
I am fading, and i am fighting it hard
Hold on to my hands tightly, and look in my eyes
As life might slip away any time soon with a smile
Sing me soft lullaby taking me to grave
Chandeliers falling, screaming, and calling
Hitting the hail, in the cold winter wind
I fear life, and i see no escape
Sending chills up my spine, giving me a heart attack