2:29 am: Life is not always easy. I am aware of this and I’m searching through my mind for some form of self discovery. Failing to do so will result in another wasted night, which I will accept with tired reluctance. Sleep eludes me, as always.
3:34 am : I wonder if forgiving someone is actually possible. If it is, I’ve yet to achieve it; if its not, then I’m wasting my time. Why life is such is a mystery to me. memories still haunt me. Any answer however, doesn’t settle my thoughts.
4:26 am: The tears begin. I’m not sure why, and I don’t have any understanding at all. As with most things in life, I know that the pain is there, shall be there but why it’s there escapes me. The tears stop, and once again, I don’t know why.
5:00 am : The sun will rise soon. I feel myself succumbing to weariness. Giving in to sleep would only be another defeat, one that I’m sure my soul could not endure. To sleep is death, to be awake is pain. I could debate with myself the truth of that statement, but at the moment it feels right; and I’ve come to the conclusion that the “now” is the only truth. There is no past, or future. Only the moment we live in is real, and to obsess over things that aren’t real is to embrace insanity.
5:24 am : and the sun has risen. Self discovery made?
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